In the past week I have had a recurring thought. This thought keeps popping into my head when I'm at work, when I'm eating, when I brush my teeth, on my drive to work, my drive home and when I'm about to go to sleep. Changing a diaper at 4 o'clock in the morning, can't keep the thought from finding it's way into my conscience. In fact, the thought hits me harder then than some of the other times. Actually the thought is really a Question that I keep keep asking myself. The Question probably has no answer, which is very unfortunate, because the answer has become of utmost importance to me. So important that it is tormenting me, as I have already discussed. The actual definition of question means "an expression of inquiry that invites or calls for reply". That brings some relief to me because someone out there may read this and have the answer and I certainly invite replies especially if you can answer The Question. Another definition of question is: a difficult matter. Again, this definition does truly describe the situation that I'm in, because it is difficult for me to live from day to day without knowing What I Can Do So That My Daughter Loves Me For The Rest Of My Life. Me loving her for the rest of her life will not be Difficult. From the day she was born, I've known that. That is not the question. The Question is how can I let her see the limitless feelings that I have for her and how can I get a portion of that love back from her spread throughout my life so that daddy's heart doesn't get broken into a million pieces.
Posted by Beverly on Monday, September 17, 2007 at 14:09
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Sweetie, of that I have no idea, but when you figure out the answer will you please be so kind as to share it with the rest of us???
I do know one thing though. Miss Aubree is the luckiest girl in the world to have her daddy love her so much. And mommy will be setting right there beside you trying to help your heart break a little less.
Comments by Mommy from United States on Monday, September 17, 2007 at 17:57
Awww you guys! Little Aubree is very lucky. We all wish we could find an answer to that question. We all just have to be the best we can be and they'll know
Comments by RMB from United States on Wednesday, September 19, 2007 at 16:34
Hello Just stopped to say I am still doing the daycare thing. It's just that it's such a pay cut and no benefits and all that good stuff. If I get all the kids I plan to have then I'll be close to making what I used to. It's just hard to go from feeling like you have this big career to daycare - not that it's not important. And I of course love staying home with baby.
Comments by RMB from United States on Thursday, September 20, 2007 at 13:18
Just stopped to say I am still doing the daycare thing. It's just that it's such a pay cut and no benefits and all that good stuff. If I get all the kids I plan to have then I'll be close to making what I used to. It's just hard to go from feeling like you have this big career to daycare - not that it's not important. And I of course love staying home with baby.